Ex-course friends

The story is like this.. When in diploma life.. I always out with friends at the beginning of 1st semester..I enjoyed with them~We always playing around, have meals together.. Therefore, I started not concentrate in study..Always like to chit chat with friends in class~ After that, my result really worst in 1st and 2nd semester and i failed few subjects.. My friends all got high scored than me..They comforted me don't be sad and study hard next time. I did study hard everytime..We played together, chit chat together.. lazy together.. I wondered why my result always lower than them.. Infront of them, i acted didn't care for the result and still chat with friends happily.. Actually in my heart i really feeling very down..I almost felt up that time..After that, i decided not to hang out around anymore, they always dated me out i also respond the same "NO"~ I really can't accept the result could be like this... Other people no study but got high scored.. But me.. Haiz!

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Since that.. i less out with my friends, only meet them in school.. After school then i straightly back to home.. That time, i was changed my mind in sudden.. no mood to out, want to save money and study hard. Truthly, i realised its costly if out with them, coz they like to eat nice food and shopping. And that time, my bf want to bring me to travel, i need to save more money so that can use in travel trip. Between, Because of many times refused friends' dated... they started ignore me.. They didnt date me anymore... Sometimes i couldnt understand their talking.. I felt bad too.. After few semester... our classes were not same and not meet together.. Sometimes feel strange.. They have their happy life.. but not included me... Since that, my friendship became bad...

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I thought I've boyfriend is enough.. i didn't care i have no closer friends. But i'm wrong.. In sudden, I thought i have boyfriend now, i have enough saving, i have good result, Everything that i dont have before I built and saved back! But now, i have no good friendship! In this 2010, i decided not to be houseworm ady, I should build up my friendship..Yes! I did trying my best! In degree, i have met some new friends, I chit chat with them always, we discuss homework together, have meals together~I tried to meet new friends, I mean Girls.. Boys still not dare to close with.. Hehe ^^ Friends + Play + Study + love.. all are equal~ It's really enjoyful! I love my life now really! I started love to Sing K now... I have been sing K with current friends now~

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Since now, i still strange with some diploma friends, I tried to save our friendship to closer.. But i couldn't... They are changed.. In their mind, they treaten me as super normal friends, they didn't care about me anymore... coz i always refuse them last time.. (hey, friends.. if you guys really understand me well, you should understand my difficulty) In this holiday, i'm super free, i gonna find some friend to out with... But my degree friends were back to hometown.. so now i thinking to find diploma friends to out together, sumore can build up the relationship..

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That day, One of a guy named "W" invited me to sing K with another 2 diploma old guy friends, then im gonna find some of my diploma girls friends out too which is A and B friend... 'A' said cannot out for some reason...Well then 'B' followed dont want to out.. Fine.. we cancelled Sing K after that.. (my bf not allowed me to out with guys alone, no girls with me so i can't out..) After a week.. B asked the guy "W" (who invited me sing K b4 but cancelled) sing K together on wed.. Then the guy "W" came to asked me wanna go together or not... That time i thought, B didnt ask me so i dont want.. coz i had online MSN, B too.. Why B dont come n ask me? why want invite through other guy? So that time I duno whether they are going sing K onot..I dont care.. so forget it... The next day, thursday.. I saw B's Fb saying that just back from Sing K.. Then i asked the guy "W", they changed date to thurday sing k? Then the guy said no, and asked why? I told him about the FB post.. Then he shocked and said Huh? why B no ask us to go Sing K together? So, That's mean it.. i shouldn't save this old friendship anymore.. It's such a dissapointed thing... Then, just let it being natural lorh~ Truthly again... i had really enjoyed and fun with them last time.. this would not forgotten in my mind forever..